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Tuesday, January 31, 2006
ystd had dinner at ' pizza hut ' . mmm... yummy yummy ! it's been suck a long time i dint eat there . uhh kinda miss tt place . the food there is deli . it was the second day of chinese new year yet the place is so deserted . okeylah wtv ! we were so full we carnt finish up the garlic bread ! nyahahas !
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Monday, January 30, 2006
i havent had my mensuration fer a very long time ! it worries me ! hey hey ! im nort pregnant alrite ! nor did i do it ! i may be stubborn & rebellious but i still have my pride&dignity ! woowoo ! i hope it comes soon ! ~bleahs . ahhh ! i demand fer an answer ! pls sumone help me !
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pple change and tt's a fact ! ahhaha know the guy hu sounded to go steady . i think he is mad at me fer not saying YES wtf ! eh hello ! my life, my choice arh ! btw to let you know i dont want to be in a relationship ! i still like him ok ! ughh . why do you need to be mad at me for ? huh ! im still wondering whether there is homewerk fer me to do or nort ? oh yar there is SS ! the teacher pisses me off man !
HATEHER! HATEHER! HATEHER! eishh ! dere's sumthin bout tudae, it feels different, it is like so calm . woohoo i loike ! ahuh ahuh ! i loikeit ! ILOVEYOUBOI !
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quite a long time i dint update my blog. uhh, veri layz arhs. well but now im in the MOOD. so lets blab ! ystd and the day bfore ystd i went to my grans . dint do much there,but i just miss her so much . i went home at abt near 11pm, i took a cab back . stop at pioneer mall went to macdonalds, buy me some supper . i bought a chesseburger and a large fries . tt's all and walk back home its nort tt far frm my hse . just finished changing my skin . its done woohoos . i sitll am in love with him. insanity . impossible
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Thursday, January 26, 2006
i just have no mood to blog today, there is sumthin fer me to blab abt but i just dont wanna let it out . simpl nobody understnds the situation im goin thru . and nobody ever will . cos' it is just so complicated right now . cum to think of it i dont think ... well nvm . i just wish i could like other people, bein happy and all, but it just nort happening to me . ughhh ! i envy to those u are happy and those hu have friends and even those hu have BF's . but i carnt trust noone now . it makes it even more impossible to to trust anione . its true what my gran said . ' you carnt give your trust tp sumone to stick with you forever, too soon and later you'll regret it cos' tt person carnt be trusted at all and also dont give all your hopes up to sumone . you must know how much sumone means to you first before you can say i trust you ' of cos' she dint speak in eng . shes nort eng spoken you know . i love my gran so much more than anything in the werld . i'll be devastedd if she left . but however life goes on and just pray to god fer things to be okay again . i just wonder whether he is hearing my prayers ? and why is he makin my life miserable what have i done wrng ? this is just nort fair . others have a great life, me living evri second of it makes me suffer and its like a torture chamber . but sad to day my life have to go on, but im just nort sure whether im living my life or nort ? is this the way it planned to be ? i just feel like ending my life right now this instant ! cos' i dont see the reason to live my life animore ! its nort a life its hell ! so after people read this crap, they may think i am an attention seeker . yarh they will think tt way . its a sure fact ! hey wth ! my blog my talk !
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Wednesday, January 25, 2006
hmm ...tudae went to npcc . tudae is like the worst day of all, we were made to run fer how many times i dont know ? then after changing then change again and then change again sick and tired of it man .
in the toilet i cursed leonard ! wtf ! uhh i hate him . after np i him at the main gate, me and azura were going out walking towerds him and his grp of friends, went to the the shop to buy lollipop, mmm yummy ! otw to the shop saw shikin wei zhou and haihui at the kopitiam, shikin said lately i was so high ! yarh maby tt's true .
no wait ! it is true . bought it thenwent out, walking walking walking...
i stop to cos i wanted to say goodbye to shahira and zuhrah .
said bye-bye to shahira, then zuhrah scared me . ' zuhrah mintk siket lolli shahira pon nk ' then zuhrah wantdd somemore
then she took my lolli out of my fingers . turned arnd heard sumone calling me it was waheeda bla bla bla... i saw her walking with suzie
and him now i dont get the shivers when i see him, mayb used to ti alredy, ahaha .
i THINK i dont like him anymore thou, aww ...
so sry . nvm . mayb i still do have feelings fer him .
he's a nice guy, very nice indeed !
i think he thinks i have changed, frankly speaking yarh i think i ahve change, my feelings towerds him, he might hate me .
yarg i think he hates me looking at his facial expression .
'eh eh mcm tau jekk' ok wtv ! if he hates me then wtd ?
right right ? saw faie when doin pt just now he so adorable .
he waved hi to me . aww .
bla bla bla this and tt happend .
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Monday, January 23, 2006
just change my skin !
nort nice uhh ! too balque !
but somewht i loike ! emo-ish !
havent finish with the tagboard uhh ,
no time still havent finish my homwerk
and still wanna watch tv !
bleahs ...
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Sunday, January 22, 2006
i heard this song so nice ! its a malay song , its called 'januari' tt sing is so romantic .
i love it ! u wont get sick hearing it oveer and over again . its an old song thou , think so arh .
bleahs , wtvr ! i dint post fer 2 days alreadi . 'malas sark nk post' . but gort nuth better tu du .
rather then watching television wit my bad - tempered bro . he is so 'bengis' i hate him.
well okey okey lets nort talk bout them , i wanna talk bout sumthin tt really makes me really curious ,
well , my cousin hakim in the same skewl as i am , well here's the deal , his eyes is blue black .
when training during rugby , he was hit by fareez's , you know the hand at the half part the bone there, tt one , hit his left eye , i dont get it whether it is intentional or unintentional , still curious
i dont think he did it on purpose , he even said he is the goody - goody guy , but his parents were
still not satisfied , so his father decided to go to skewl and talk to fareez , and he said he was nort at skewl fer a very long time , heard tt frm my mom , so no wonder i dint see him in skewl fer such a long time . pissh ! so tt's the case , i dont think he did it with intention thou . well i dont know , but if ...
no tt cant be ! hey ! hey ! why the heck am i talking abt them , well, did nuth much , i carnt rmbr whether i have homewerk or nort , im so forgetful ! well i ask arnd . im feeling unusually happy todae , im uncure whether i still like him , i think i still have feelings fer him thou , oh what the heck !
i think im gonna change my skin ! sick of it larh too blackish , nort colourful , i want a lil bit pinkish ,
or reddish or wtvr ! im full of crap !
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Thursday, January 19, 2006
althou i dont have the mood to blog cos im so dman the layz .
I just have to blog today, ok lets see, she really crossed the line today . she really pisses me off man ! lets see, after recess
buck teeth told me gort lst minute thingy to help set up
the structure fer tmr's cca fair . well yeah we waited !
and then lst minute cancel aint tt pathetic .
okay, here's the deal, the OTHERS dont plan to got to
np . i also feel like not goin too . b4 we had np thingy,
theres this book talk, i was the second lst person .
she can wait for azura but wat? she carnt wait for me !
to hell with you man . i tell you sumthin' if azura wud g0 to np
i tell you hairani would willingly wait for her
no matter what it takes .
but me ? NO !
even if i ask her to wait, she wont wait !
she will go off ! i just feel like telling her off !
and the others .
its not like im 'semangat' like tt mahx .
its they lorh, they are so selfish !
if we were to even do tt !
wat ? we did it and then they still got the credit .
im so fucked up man !
lets not talk bout THEM
talk bout her .
she acts like nuthin happen !
gawd ! wat the hell sia !
she ask for forgiveness during hariraya
when she came to my hse .
i forgive her . and she still did the same thing .
wtf arh ! nxt time when she ask for forgivesness
i must let her be on her knees .
i know tt's harsh !
after you all read this you guys may think
im like emo or watevr !
but if you guys were in my shoes you feel the
same way .
i duno larh watevr .
they make me feel like a third wheel .
friendship is to be shared fairly .
and to be distributed fairly .
if its ur BF then you can give extra what ?
okay wtevr ! you guys just make me sick !
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Wednesday, January 18, 2006
I don't feel like blogging you wanna know why ?
Im just so pissed off with everybody arnd me .
pissh !
first it was this then it was tt ! wtf !
pathertic !
but 0verall and all i got over him
I just f0rgot bout him .
hhaaha .
what the hell . Im just pissed off frm some of my friends .
in conclusion, today was quite embarassing .
had an audition for the ethnic celebrations .
wanted to get out of the hall as fast as I could !
pissh .
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Sunday, January 15, 2006
did nuthin' much t0day, let me see, yurp its 0fficial I realy have nuthin' t0 blab abt t0dae,
0h n0 wait I think I have sumthin' t0 blab abt .
dint d0 much t0dae, sit arnd the wh0le day watchin' tv .
tt's h0w b0red I am ! I just realise tt I think I like studyin .
weird ? yeah, t0tally !
actualy I nvr realy like studyin, previ0usly .
I realy d0nt kn0w what's g0tten int0 me ? !
I think Im turnig int0 a g00dy - g00dy gurl .
0h n0 ! am I ? pissh ! get th0se dirtyy th0ts 0ut 0f my mind .
ahah !
I d0nt kn0w why I feel like I d0nt even kn0w me,
I fell like a changed pers0n . th0u I d0nt realy see
the change .
but 0ne things f0r sure, l0ts 0f things have changed
arnd me, 0nli I d0nt take time t0 n0tice .
I guess I wasnt bein self - less, I feel s0 self - centered .
I guess I was t00 caught up with myself,
tt I dint realise the 0thers needs .
selfish me . want all the things all t0 myself .
c0me t0 realise it, Ive g0rt nuthin'
if im g0nna be this way f0rever .
well I hate it !
there there see I d0 have sumthin' t0
blab/bl0g abt . pissh !
I pity my y0ungest lil' br0, he's 0nli pri 0ne
and he's already stressing 0ut !
he's been studyin evry single day !
just s0 as t0 n0rt t0 be sc0ld by his mother tounge
teacher . w0h ! he's evil !
hessh, frm nuthin' t0 sumthin'
well, Im glad tt piece 0f crap tt I blab abt was 0ver !
I am s0 full 0f crap & n0nsence !
t00 bad it is what tt made me !
and Im pr0ud 0f it .
heh ! the g00d thing is I g0rt my mind 0f him,
well y0u nk0w what happens
when y0u're s0 crazy 0ver him !
and when y0u get addicted to him,
thers n0 way 0ut man !
when y0ure stuck y0ur stuck !
maybe they are meant t0 be there
f0r y0u t0 be stuck 0n !
huh ? !
wth ! am I blaberring abt !
this is what happens when y0u get addicted t0 crapping !
ahah . bleahs .
pissh . Im 0ut .
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Saturday, January 14, 2006
went t0 my grans just n0w .
like I d0 evry saturday,
I g0rt this recitati0n 0f the h0ly b00k, kn0wn as the . .
al'quran, n0rt Im this g00dy - g00dy type 0f gurl,
I dreaded f0r it, but s0meh0w 0r what,
I kinda like reciting it, it makes me f0rget all my pr0blems
my w0rries, my anger even HIM !
It makes me f0rget the werld !
Im c0nfused myself . uhh
pe0ple may think Im this g00dy - g00dy type 0f gurl
c0s when I g0 0ut I wear this veil thingy,
00ps but 0nli when Im visiting my grans
and 0ut with my parents,
but I did g0 0ut with them wit0ut my veil,
00o, but what the heck !
just sh0win s0me respect, they will g0 s00n,
and when they g0 I will miss them .
c0s I l0ve them s0 much !
I d0nt kn0w why, but actually deep inside
I wanna be a better gurl, but Im s0 damn stubb0rn
n0 seri0usli I reali d0 .
I d0nt care if 0thers think Im this g00dy - g00dy gurl,
sad t0 say it makes me feel really happy ab0ut
myself, I d0nt want my life t0 be full 0f envy,
Im full 0f envy, I hate it t0 be tt way !
well its just t00 bad th0u,
my heart hasnt 0pened yet .
0key, I kn0w what I wr0te just n0w was full 0f crap .
but a bl0g is f0r y0u t0 thr0w y0ur feelings here,
aint I right ?
well thats h0w I feel .
think whatevr y0u want, say whatevr y0u want
but s0meday y0u'll realise it !
and y0u w0uld want t0 change .
I just made mine, it takes time d0nt kn0w whether Im
g0nna stick wit it .
pisshh .
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Friday, January 13, 2006
I g0rt secret t0 reveal . shh..
I dint attend skewl t0dae,
wanna kn0w why ?
its bc0s I g0rt diarrheoa(did I spell it c0rrectly ?)
0h yah I still have m0re secrets t0 reveal .
0n the first day, wednesday,
waiting f0r c0nsultati0n frm the d0ct0r .
I was lying 0n the c0uch helplessly .
then wit0ut any signal, I puked .
00ps but I dint puke 0n the fl00r,
I puked in the plastic bag, i br0ught frm h0me
ahaha lame huh, lame but c0nvenient .
then the sec0nd time I puked was at value sh0p
still in the plastic,
heh but n0rt in the same 0ne I puked at first
I am certainly n0rt tt gr0sse .
the 0tha day I menti0ed I l0st
3 kg right ?
well I gained it back,
my 0ringinal weight is 49 kg
heavy huh, fer a small sized kidd0 like me
Its all bc0s 0f thse damn heavy b0nes and bla bla bla, s0 back to the topic,
I 0nli gained back 2 kg,
n0w 48, Im n0rt happy !
damny0u ! fucking b0nes .
my height is 0nli 1.49,
I dint gr0w .
argh.
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Thursday, January 12, 2006
t0dae at night, went 0ut t0 jur0ng east lib.
last minute thingy, n0 malay b00k . t00k a cab .
there, when we came 0ut just 0utside the lib i saw
my malay teacher, ms azlina in the cafe .
b0rr0wed f0ur malay b00ks,
when i t00k the lift quite scary .
all al0ne .
went t0 the adults secti0n, b0rr0wed 3 malay b00ks,
then went back up t0 teens secti0n it was quite
deserted, it gave me the shivers,
very dark t00 .
just t00k 0ne b00k,
n0 time luh, the security guard said it's
kl0sed alreadi.
s0 i th0t 0f taking the lift,
i changed my mind
i f0ll0wed where the 0thas are g0in
im a little bit 0f a c0ward .
im n0rt scared 0f r0aches,
0nli gr0ssed 0ut frm them .
ahha . pissh im tired .
hais tmr still g0rt np neh . bleahs
havent ir0n the unif0rm .
havent p0lished my b00ts and all
decided g0nna d0 tt tmr m0rnin
wake up at 0515hrs ad d0 all the stuff
malas tau nk buat ni bende
menyusahkan
0key lurh,
i'll st0p here n0w .
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hmph... wat can I say, n0w huh . I'm sitting infr0nt 0f the
c0mputer, wit my kitten 0n my lap . shhh .
wat was tt f0r ? lame much !
n0w i w0n't b0ther wit hairani anim0re . n0rt as in ign0re her
as in, n0rt k0lling her anim0re, i tink t0 her me k0lling her is kinda 0f a nuinsance, did i spell it right ?
well g00d news i w0n't k0l u anim0re alrite !
well, she can k0l azura anitime she wants, but me N0 ! !
s0 nvm her, 0MG ! ! I'm s0 b0red ! damn b0red !
ystd wen i k0lled her, when i said i w0n't be cumin tu skewl
tmr, she kinda s0unded happy .
i think i like azura better .
n0w tt i saw her true k0l0urs.
lalala . . .
tt means ' d0 i l00k like i care ? ! '
ahaha .
BF huh ? wtf ! r u tryna pr0ve ?
carnt wiat tu g0 back tu skewl tmr .
ehehe, n0 m00d sia . t0 p0st .
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Wednesday, January 11, 2006
i still g0rt m0re t0 say . even th0u i d0nt kn0w what t0 say
at jur0ng p0int a few peeps.alifah.ira.jacq.rahman.rahmat.sufyan.haziq.amir.
d0nt quite rmbr . l0rh . met westw00dians, g0rt th0se three
biscuit head . just dunn0 why they damn us, well n0w, im n0rt inv0lve in thier affairs, btw them and hairani and azura.
0h yah i als0 met the b00sters . ahaha . d0nt kn0w wats tt .
g0 find 0ut fer urself . muakaka .
' i want u t0 kn0w that ur the 0nly 0ne fer me '
00ps i changed the t0pic
" i g0t y0u "
' i kn0w y0u and y0u kn0w me and tt's all tt c0unts '
i must stick wit y0u
i think im alreadi stuck . ehehe
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wee!hehe!!!
t0dae didn't g0 tu skewl, ehehe! tmr als0 . w00ts! w00ts! im sick 0f puking, th0se headaches and n0rt f0rgetting the gastric pains, the d0c said, g0rt al0t 0f wind in my tummy, first time i saw my tummy s0 s0 flat . ahaha . i carnt eat anitink n0w, anitink i eat, i'll puke it all 0ut again, the headaches are g0ne fer n0w, but evrytime i ate, i'll get gastric pains. but there's a p0sitive side tu evritink rite.
if i puke evrytime i eat, i w0uld n0rt gain weight . ahaha.
y0u guys want tu n0e sumtink, i l0st 3 kg! h0w k00l is that.
is n0rt k00l, it's just lame . tmr n0rt g0in tu skewl, yehyeh!
but stay at h0me quite b0rink, c0rrecti0n, it is b0rink .
i w0n't be able tu see him . missing u alreadi.
i miss my fwens t00, especially shahira .
kn0w why, when she smiles .
she never fails tu make me happy .
n0 seri0usli, she is cheerful all the time.
i like tu see her face.
h0w much i hate tt skewl im in.
i g0tta admit sumtink, i miss skewl .
i miss azura's smilee
when she larfs, quite funni.
make me larf als0 . her larf is infecti0us.
0key larh peep0s . i'll st0p here.
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Tuesday, January 10, 2006
t0dae is hari raya haji.
i went 0ut at ab0ut 1100 hrs, went tu my grans hse, 0n my father's side . didn't du much there th0u, after that, went tu my grans hse 0n my m0ther's side, when i reached there, it was ab0ut 1430 hrs, at 3 i watched ' tangkai jering ' as t0ld by my m0ther t0unge teacher.
didn't watch it till the end, fell asleep, ehehe.
at 1700hrs went tu jur0ng east, tu the library, when we reached there then i rmbr'd the library is kl0s'd then went tu p0pular tu find a b00k, but can't find 0ne, later we went tu ' ayies ' , hees kinda remin'dd me 0f s0meb0dy, b0ugth l0rts 0f stuff, acces0ries sh0p my fav0urite st0p.
im feelin kinda sick t0dae, had an upste st0mach, just v0mitted al0rt, the smell 0f that thing make me v0mit s0me m0re, pr0bably, mayb n0rt g0in tu skewl tmr.
tt's basically all that happen'd.
mwahs!
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dedicatted tu u.
I d0nt wanna g0 an0ther day..
s0 I'm telling y0u exactly what is 0n my mind
seems like everyb0dy's breaking up
and thr0wing their l0ve away...
but i kn0w i g0t a g00d thing right here,
that's why I say.. (hey..)
n0b0dy g0nna l0ve me better, I must stick wit u f0rever
n0b0dy g0nna take me higher, I must stick wit u..
y0u kn0w h0w t0 appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby!
n0b0dy ever made me feel this way, Imma stick wit u
this is 0nly part 0f the s0ng, u want the rest g0 find yerself.
this s0ng is dedicatted tu him.
il0vehim s0 dearly.
all is here.
u changed muh liife al0rt
pls lett itt stay thiis way.
i d0nt want u tu g0.
they w0nt bring us d0wn.
n0b0dy ever made me feel this way, i must stick wit u
il0vey0u.
i kn0w y0u and y0u kn0w me and thats all that c0unts.
y0u kn0w h0w t0 appreciate me, i must stick wit u my baby.
i kn0w y0u kn0w h0w i feel fer y0u.
i need tu hear frm y0u.
i d0nt want t0 g0 an0ther day.
s0 i'm telling y0u exactly what is 0n my mind.
that's all that c0unts.
il0vey0u!
watashiwa aishi teru!
ku cinta padamu!
w0 ai ni!
always in my mind.
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Sunday, January 08, 2006
t0dae is like ani 0tha dae, me here infr0nt 0f the c0m , staring at it and it staring back at me . yeah tts h0w b0red i am . just n0w i watched a true st0ry at suria channel , embum , its a l0ve st0ry aww... part 0f it larh , the japanese s0ldier fell in l0ve with this gurl , named embun , this s0ldier helped her br0ther get 0ut 0f jail , and her fren frm the clutches 0f the japanese s0ldiers frm bein their sex slaves , he did a l0t fer the malay c0munity , alas they were caught , embun and k0ishi died (the guy hu helped her) k0ishi was sh0t by the s0ldier hu raped embun , embun died by japanese s0ldiers hu were 0rdered tu kill her , she was sh0t alrite , but in time she managed tu kill the soldier hu raped her , she died beside k0ishi , wat a sad sad st0ry . well tt was kinda lame, it is , c0s i am . tt managed tu kill 0ne para. me sitting here infr0nt 0f th e c0mputer , in this c0ld , dark weather . veri b0red . ystd my fren t0ld me sumtink reali hilari0us , its ab0ut a guy n tw0 gals , 0ne 0f them is me , wait d0nt jump int0 c0nclusi0ns n0t just yet . we are n0rt fighting fer the same guy , heres the thing , the 0tha gurl is shahira , deres dis guy hu likes shahira n me the b0th 0f us ... 00ps i sp0ke t00 much , cant tell the rest 0f the st0ry muahaha . n0w lets change the subject , i miss him s0 much , i cant belif it i still d0 like him , w0w must be sumkind 0f miracle . sum0ne's watching 0ver me . live it . l0ve it .
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me day huh?! n0rt dat bad larh tudae , went tu the teens alive thingy , we planned wat we gonna du fer this yr , quite fun , sum 0f the activities are , ice-skating , rock-climbing and l0tts l0tts m0re . wen i was att the klas i felt like an outcast , n0 seri0usli , n0b0dy is talking tu me , well watevr . its the same at skewl , my fren , 0key let's meti0n names , hairani , she WAS my best fren , n0w n0rt anim0re . she always talk tu azura , like i'm n0rt visible tu them they walk tugether tu klas n talking bout the anugerah b0is , n their latest s0ngs , i was n0rt much updated n n0rt interested at all . s0 i think it's better tt i t0k tu sum0ne else . n s0 0n , just tu lett u all n0e this thing happened ystd , exp fer the teens alive , wen it was recess time , we brought our bags , c0s after recess was our m0ther t0unge klas , my fren waited fer me outside the d00r , we th0t 0f g0in d0wn tu sit at the r0und tables , we we just walk fer a lil bit , 0MG! i saw him , the i t0ld my frens tu turn arnd n n0rt walk tt way , they did , they wnated tu g0 tu the t0ilet , but it was full . s0 we went d0wn 0n the way tu the staircase , my frens st0pped at a p0int where he can see me n i can see him , hairani said he's there l00king at me , duh! i n0ticed it , k then i l00ked at him , 0h he was l00king at me t00 , s0 it became m0re 0f an eye-c0ntact frm far, ahaha , s0 i cut it , he was still staring at me wif his m0uth 0pen . 00ps! the HE i'm referring tu is... cant tell haha. went d0wn went back up again saw shahira and said hi tu her , then went tu the r0und tables n sat there. s0 tt was it . wat happen tudae was... after teens alive klas i waited fer the bus , at the interchange , the 178 bus came tu alight , sum0ne i n0e , it was ryan , i turned my head s0 as n0rt tu be seen , i turned n saw him n yazid , he didn't see me c0s i c0vered myself wif my file , ahaha . lame huh . i n0e . c0s i am 0ne , u d0nt like it dats ur pr0blem . well tt was 0ver . n dat dae was 0ver. he l00ks s0 ad0rable!! eheiks , kiute larh . dats a wrap!
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l0ng time never p0st
Thursday, January 05, 2006
hais veri b0red larh so decided to edit a p0st, l0ng time never update lorhx , ahaks , must be m0re hardwerkin nxt time. l0l . n0w im veri sick dunn0 wat tu du lia0s , n0w nutink interesting tu share larh. s0 buhbye.
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