one week of school passed just like that, many of the days were cut short, thankfully. simple reason was i was still in the holiday mood. im not a fan of long school breaks, things change, people change - maybe they haven't but you just haven't seen them or spoke to them for a veryy long time so you just simply forget who they are. dumb reason i know. i just don't know what's happening now, between us, i have a feeling he's avoiding me, yeah he is. i just don't know what's the problem, we haven't been talking for a long time, i don't even see his face in school, how is that ? it seems impossible, apparently it is, it's the fact and the truth.

i've heard things from people, my classmates, they aren't really the things you wanna hear about your - see i don't know why i can't say that word to describe him.

i don't know what i should do now, pretend like things never happened ? those feeling i had be ignored ? or just wait and hopes he'll come around ? ugh, wait. i hate waiting especially for somoething that's not certain. or go off silent ?