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Thursday, May 28, 2009
so let's start with a high note - actually, it's a long time since, I haven't had highlights of the day or week. Cause, honestly, I have none. Well, other than laughing my ass off every single day. That's basically it. I know this is how my life, mundane, boring, and uninteresting. I'm looking for drama(but I don't want it), I'm waiting to crush on someone(but I never seem to like anyone.) I like to stay in rather than go out. Call me boring - that's how my life is. I want to chase for my dreams(but not certain if it's supposed to be my dream). I want to change(but the procrastination never ends) . I don't care what people think about me(but deep down I'm thinking what they might be thinking. Would they like it ?) I'm a worrywot(but I hide it)
The time spent writing these words should be used to study for my exams but I'm not. Oooh surprise, surprise.(rollseyes). In the tunnel I only see darkness and I know I shouldn't be looking forward for the light. Because in the end it is me who's going to get disappointed all over again. Like it always have been. And right now, I should be studying but that's not what I want to do. But I'm going to, because life ain't my fantasy I've created on my own. Life is unexpected, it's a mystery. If it has to be that way, and no other way. I want it to be worthwhile, not just for a while.
And I'm hope I'm the the kind of person that not only talks the talk but also walks the walk.
And I am sick of this emo shit stuff.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
honestly, I think I need more brain cells - really. I feel so fucking stupid sometimes. The simplest of maths I can't understand, especially someone who used to have a standing in Normal Acad stream. I don't how to survive this I don't know how I'm going to survive Poly. I mean only if I can get through, which is a very very very very slim chance, close to 5percent. Right now, I doubt I can - looks like I'm going to be continuing in Higher Nitec. Ugh, the very thought of it makes me wanna kill myself, I don't think I can endure another 3 years to get to poly. I am seriously screwed.