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falling leaves, swept away by the breeze
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
You want to go with the flow, you made a choice and expected the outcome but somehow deep down wanting so much to be surprised. Somehow today, was defintely unexpected in a sense that you don't know every detailed happenings. But nothing extraordinary, it came out just as close to how I thought it was.
Life can take many unexpected turns, still a surprise. I hate surprises that's why I'm predictable, I hate being predictable, with people knowing exactly what I'm going to say or do next. But I can say one thing for sure, I have many words left to say, many feelings left to be expressed. That no one can see it's as if there's a huge wall infront of me; hiding me, not exposing my secrets of the past. You read this 'Wow she's such a mystery, I almost don't recognise her'.
I'm just saying if I don't open up to you, don't take offence I'm just that way. I have major trust issues regarding huge matters not trival subjects - that I can take - Because right now in my life, not a single soul knows how broken and sceptical I am towards people and their sweet words.
Sometimes you were meant to fall - you do - but lightly because you braced for it, for the shortcomings. Sometimes you think you know what's gonna happen but it doesn't. To interpret life in a few words is a definite impossibility. Because it's just too vast, for just mere philosophical phrases. Philosophies - I think are there to make us understand life alot better. Because sometimes the confusion and the madness can overwhelm you sometimes.
And I've decided to paste my result slip on my refrigerator door, to inspire me, to motivate me wheneve I think I can't. If I could get 2 B's I definitely can get to A's in this current term.
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