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Thursday, July 02, 2009
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Hopes are something you hold on to in life - it's almost a necessity. In situations like, when you're loved one is in an accident and in a critical condition. You hope and pray for them out of care and concern. Also when you went for your job interview, you hope to get that job. Hope - in my opinion, is supposed to ease your horrid thoughts for the worse that could happen. Hope can never go wrong, it is something that feelings can never go against.

I hoped too much, I depend on it too much, not believing in miracles to a total pessimist, somewhere in between is a place where I always find myself. What I'm about to say in my case, right now. I hope too much and work too little. Believing in miracles when I so much stand against it. I thought I would do well at least a decent grade from my very poor and pathetic previous one. There is an improvement, most definitely. Figuratively and attitude wise. But in reality, even if I work to the best of my ability and I got the best that I could ever get in the next term I would just still be above good. That is, of course if I work hard enough for that grade. And after all that has been done. After all the hopes crushed I'm still hoping. When it has failed me so many times. But in actual fact I have failed myself, not studying enough and being to complacent and a fool to think everything is going to go my way.

Blaming hope is my alibi. Because my egoistical-self won't admit that I was the reason for my failures. I am my own enemy and my own best friend. I am driven to do and be the best in my own record. I'm not competing with others I am competing with myself. I could either falter in my own negativity and self-pity or I could rise and achieve what I know I can all this time.


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